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Monday, February 23, 2015

Death of this Blog

I recently got an email from blogger.  Here's an excerpt:

In the coming weeks, we'll no longer allow blogs that contain sexually explicit or graphic nude images or video. We'll still allow nudity presented in artistic, educational, documentary, or scientific contexts, or where there are other substantial benefits to the public from not taking action on the content.

Well, then.

Since my blog falls under the categories of 'sexually explicit' and 'graphic nude images/videos', this seems like the end for me here.

If anyone has a tumblr, I'll be using that as my main blog from now on.  It's probably better since I'm slightly more active there (or at least can pretend to be by queuing random images.)

Follow my tumblr here!
Follow my tumblr here!
Follow my tumblr here!
Follow my tumblr here!

It's been a fun ride here on blogger/blogspot.  Sorry to see it end.

Lots of love,


Saturday, February 21, 2015

Winterfire Chicken, 2015 Edition

I borrowed this format from FL's _Spiral_ and FL's PizzaDog:

Chickens are a thing.

This is a breakdown of Winterfire 2015 for me.  This year was especially interesting.

The Hard Stuff

  • A lot of people acknowledged my partner, M0co, but not me, as an instructor at WF.  Occasionally I would get dismissed so that the "teacher" could show them how to do a tie.
  • I had a pretty bad anxiety Friday night, the first night of play.  The anxiety was so bad, I had to leave for 30 minutes to be by myself.
  • I didn't get to spend much time with a couple of my super close friends/partners. I had really planned on it because I haven't been super supportive the past few months and I wanted to show them I still do care.
  • I didn't get to play with everyone I had hoped to play with- in some cases, I never even had the guts to ask.
  • This was my first time at a play party bottoming to other people who aren't M0co, so I dealt with a few feelings of guilt, like I had cheated.
  • I didn't eat well.  Not eating well makes me cranky.
  • I didn't sleep well. Not sleeping well makes me ultra cranky.

The Good Stuff

  • I had so many people congratulate me on my marriage and it felt so good to hear it and see people say it with a smile on their faces.
  • I wore my wedding dress to the Kraken's Ball and the moment M0co saw me, he ran over, scooped me up, kissed me and told me I was beautiful.
  • The play dates in which I bottomed were amazing.  The tops were wonderful and I would totally do it again.
  • I had a play date in which there was no rope.  It was nice to not be seen as just 'that rope bottom'.
  • I've gotten a lot of positive feedback from our classes.
  • I did get to do my traditional date with my girlcrush :) and she was amazing.
  • I had my sadistic mojo back when I played with a friend. It made me want to go back to topping more.
  • When people asked to play and I said no, no one pressed it or questioned it. It was nice to feel respected.

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Work, Weddings, The Woodshed and other things that start with W

I am getting increasingly bad at updating my blog.  A lot of it had to do with vanilla world- I was working a job that had me in a lab almost 12 hours a day, 5 days a week.  On weekends, I'd spend it working at kink events and parties.  I didn't give myself much time to breathe, let alone blog.  It finally reached a breaking point and I knew I needed to make some changes.

I switched into a new department at work, one that is aimed towards R&D and validation of protocols instead of working with production.  The amount of stress that took off my shoulders has been incredible.  I'm working just as hard, with less hours and more pay.  In fact, I've learned more in the last 3 weeks of being in this new department than I have at the almost 2 years with the old department.  What's not to love?

I'm not sure if most people knew this, but I was married previous to joining the BDSM world- I had a vanilla husband when I met M0co.  It's funny because while most people try to hide their kink lives from the vanilla world, I was doing the exact opposite.  Our marriage wasn't one based on sexual attraction. and eventually, it came time for us to part.  Our divorced was finalized at the end of Jan 2015.  L, my now-ex-husband, and I are still friends and we're very happy for one another.

Since my divorce was finalized, it meant that I was free to marry M0co now.  He's been waiting patiently for over 2 years and when the divorce papers finally arrived, he was probably more ecstatic than I was.  He texted me all day, making plans.  It finally came down to two of the most important texts I'll ever receive in my life:

M0co: Let's get married this weekend :)
M0co: I don't want to waste any more of my life not calling you my wife

Who says romance is dead?

On Feb 7, 2015, M0co and I eloped in Las Vegas.  I had this huge amazingly detailed post planned, but, in the end, the post just didn't feel...right.  M0co and I never have made a big deal out of the major milestones in our life- no collaring ceremony, no huge announcements of our engagement.  It's fitting that we did a quicky marriage in a place known for its incredible amounts of sin.

Since we did such a tiny wedding, there were no real photos taken.  We did take a bunch of selfies and live tweeted a bit:

We did, however, celebrated M0co jute style:

Winterfire occurred this past weekend.  This is the first time in,,,pretty much ever, in which I decided to put out into the Universe that I would like to bottom to other people.  I was blessed to have friends respond and this year my Winterfire experience was incredibly different than any I've ever been to.  I'm still processing the event and hopefully will have a writing about it soon.

FIRE in Orlando is coming up- I've managed to stretch out our stay in Florida a bit longer so we can enjoy the weather and spend times with our friends down at The Woodshed.  Events tend to burn me out since we do a lot of teaching, I'm happy to be able to pace myself and recover in someplace warm and with good friends.  I plan on treating our extra few days in Orlando as a mini-honeymoon for M0co and myself.  I'm not so sure he pictures it that way, though :P